WEEK 13 ~ Life after Loss

After losing my only son to suicide in May of 2005, Christmas and Mother’s Day have become a mom by the fire rememberingthe hardest times of my life.  Every day is tough, but it is near unbearable during these times.

Last year a new tradition was formed with my niece and nephew Janel and Zachary.

We spend the afternoon/evening together….we start with the movies and then go to dinner.  It is so perfect because it is as if we have the town to ourselves!  No crowds, and quality time together.  This year was no exception.  We brought along my mom this year, and had an amazing time!  We always start at xmas eve 2014 at the moviesthe movies, and of course they get to pick the movie.  So far it hasn’t been a movie I would go to myself, but I enjoy just being with them as they enjoy the movie.  Afterwards we headed for pizza.xmas eve 2014  Very yummy and had some great conversation as usual.  We dropped off grammy and headed to go race go carts…..oops!  They were closed; darn it!  But I manage to coax Zach into taking another pic with me…..Janel didn’t want any part of it!

xmas eve 2014 me and zach

Such an amazing day, and I had managed to do so well this year…..then, Christmas Day and Facebook.  Let’s just say that is not a good combination for me.  While I absolutely love seeing all of the festivities, it just makes it too hard on me.  It just reminds me that my son is no longer with me.  So, I went into diversion mode.  Now, some may not think that is a good thing, but I will tell you that I get through these tough days in any manner that I can.

So, my hubby and I watched movies all day.  You would think he might get some that were uplifting, happy, etc.  But no, he managed to get tear jerkers….lol  He knows what I like, and they were awesome movies, but come on with all of the tears already.  I have been a bit paralyzed since Christmas, but I have learned to allow myself this time to re group and seek strength in it.  So today, I am strong!  I am ready to make the changes in my life to get exactly what I want.  Nothing in the way of my success, and reaching all of my goals through my “DMP” (Definite Major Purpose)  It is so awesome to know exactly where I am headed, and therefore know whether or not something I want to do will fulfill this goal.  Makes life so much easier to manage.

Find your DMP and your inner gifts!  Share them with the world….they are waiting for you!  And, remember to have only LOVE in your heart ♥

There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence or Luck ♥

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart♥


WEEK 12 ~ Blessings

I begin my Week 12 with 2 of my favorite people, my niece and nephew Janel and Zachary.  Janel is in the Choir and had her Christmas Program.  What a delight to see her perform.  She is such a beautiful young lady.Janels xmas choir performance

The Christmas Choir program fell on December 15th, and my nephew Zachary’s birthday was the very next day so we went to Red Robin to celebrate his birthday a little early.  He doesn’t really like his picture to be taken, unless of course he is on his dirt bike in full gear, airborne!  But he took his very first selfie with his “Aunt C” ♥  That’s what they call me 🙂

selfie with zachary at his bday dinner

I spent the first 3 months of each of their lives with me at my mortgage offices.  We bonded deeply, and they will always have a huge part of my heart!

Such a blessing it was to me to spend this quality time with them.




Fresno SOS logo

On Tuesday, December 16th,  I was with fellow survivors of suicide loss.  I lit a candle for my son Cliff, and hearing all of these amazingly beautiful people speak about how they didn’t know how they would have survived their loss without Fresno SOS, just fueled my motivation to continue to support this organization.Cliff and his cowboy hat cropped

Christmas is a very tough time of the year for anyone who has lost a loved one. ♥  I am so grateful to be able to help others, which in turn helps me as well.  I wouldn’t wish this pain on even my enemy, but I am so thankful that I can help in some manner.

Be kind to your loved ones, hug them often, and make sure they know just how much you love them! ♥

Now, bring only LOVE to all of your holiday gatherings…..leave all of the hurt, the anger, and anything else that might get in the way of spending quality time with your family and friends.

I know first-hand that none of us are promised tomorrow, so make the best of your today’s!

There is no such thing as chance, luck or coincidence! ♥

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at heart♥


Week 11 ~ Marriage and Remembering

Week 11 of my Master Key Journey has been yet another interesting one.  More growth and the huge payoff!

I cannot tell you how blessed I am to be on this journey.

This week, I was pushed again….more than I would have been able to endure in my most recent past.  And yet, I made it through the week and made some amazing new memories.

me and MelissaI had the honor of marrying my daughter Melissa; her mom Sara Rogers, my dear friend to whom we lost to cancer in January of 2011 to colon cancer.




This photo of Sara was from the day she asked me to take care of her daughter Melissa……and she would take care of my son in heaven♥

My sweet sara







December 13th 2014; It was such a beautiful day.  Just the day before we had crazy rain here in the Central Valley of CA, but on this day, the sun came out, the rain stopped so we were all able to park and not sink in the mud.

Sara poking through the cloudsOn my way to Melissa’s house, I captured this picture…..do you see the ray of sunshine poking through the clouds?  That was my sweet Sara letting me know she was with us♥


Nick and Melissa were so happy and did an amazing job!  Aren’t they beautiful?Nick and Melissa saying their vows









When Melissa, Sandy, Katie and I got together to shop for her wedding dress, Melissa was going down the list of what was done and what still needed to be done.

katie melissa me and sandy




One of the items was they needed someone to marry them.  It was at that moment I knew that it would be me!  So, I got ordained, and was blessed to be the one officiating for them on 12-13-14 at 15:16pm 🙂

I got through the ceremony, shared some special words with them both and not a tear from me was shed.  I did that before I arrived ♥

nick and melissaThey are on their honeymoon now, and beginning there life together as husband and wife.  I couldn’t be happier for any other two beautiful people on this earth than I am for them.  And I love them both deep within my heart ♥

On Sunday, it was time to prepare for my 4th Annual Candle Lighting Ceremony, remembering our children who were lost too soon.

2014 candle lighting ceremony logo

I began the morning putting together the video that would be played that evening.  I had so much on my plate this year that I was not able to begin this video until the day of.  In years past, this would not have been possible.  However, over the years I have learned a little here and there, and so I began this project.  I began at about 7:30 am, and at 2:30 pm it was producing……ahhh I thought.  Just in the nick of time so I can get to the location and start setting up.  But no, it took over an hour to produce.  Then, once it was produced I had to upload it to YouTube so I could put it on my sons blog at CliffsStory.com  You see, there are many moms, dads, sisters, brothers, grandmas and grandpas who just aren’t ready to grieve in public.  So for them, I post the ceremony on my sons blog so they can join us in the Worldwide Candle Lighting Ceremony from their own homes.  Well, the video was just about done and then….ERROR; your video is too long.  Yikes!  I had posted it to my sons YouTube channel and didn’t have the unlimited time ability yet.  So, had to upload it again on my own YouTube channel.  This was very stressful, as I should have already been on location setting up for the live ceremony.  But, I wasn’t going to leave my most vulnerable moms, etc. without an online ceremony for them to view.

Now, after the previous 2-3 weeks prior to this, and the pain of the holidays in general, I would have broken down in tears…..but not this year!  I just knew that it was all going to be okay, it was going to be what GOD intended it to be, and I just kept on until finally, SUCCESS!!!! ♥♥♥

The ceremony was beautiful, and I got to connect with some new moms.  You see, I lost my son in May of 2005 to suicide, and reaching out to other moms is something that is near and dear to my heart.  I know how moms feel about losing their children.  They just don’t want their children to be forgotten.  So, I will continue to produce these videos annually and collect photos of our children gone too soon!  They will never be forgotten.

I continue to be overwhelmed by the blessing this journey has provided to me.  It hasn’t been very long ago that I would not have been capable of enduring what I have these past 3 weeks.

Such a blessing indeed! ♥

My friends, you have gifts, gifts that the world need to be blessed with.  Never settle for anything less than your deepest passions!  Within those passions are mighty strength.  No matter what your past has thrown at you, you are still perfect and the world is waiting on your gifts!  Share them and fulfill your need for sharing your unique gifts….we all need them♥

There is no such thing as Luck, Chance or Coincidence♥

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart♥

Week 10 ~ My Mastermind Alliance

As I end out my Week 10, I have found my new mastermind alliance partner, my husband♥  Me and my hubby

We buried his mom a few days ago, and had a major break through as well.  My husband Tony and I have been married for 21 years.  And yet we still are growing together.  Not apart, but growing even stronger together.

After the funeral and reception, I came back to be with my husband.  We visited with family where we were staying for the evening and then ended up with some time alone.  It was an amazing tender moment for us both.  I shared with him what I had to do in order to wake up with excitement every day, and how without it I could not Cliffords Housebear to live.  Not that I am broken, but that this was my purpose.  Tony knew of my passion in this 6 month course I was taking, but I hadn’t shared any particulars with him.  He of course knows all about “Clifford’s House“, and what that means to me.  And yet, I had never really broke down in tears while telling him just how much it means to me.  There is something very powerful in that moment.  And the most beautiful part of all, is that we both agree on how to keep this legacy alive and thriving long past our lifetime.  What a gift it is to have a partner in life who is in harmony with you.

Today I am preparing for our 4th Annual Candle Lighting Ceremony, in memory of our children to whom have died.  Tony is always right there by my side helping me to make an impact on a family.  We have never had a ton of people show up, but there is always a family that

we are able to help through the holidays.  In addition, I post the actual ceremony on my son’s blog “Cliff’s Story” so that any moms, dads, sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles and so on, are able to light a candle at home and share in the ceremony from the privacy of their homes, so we may actually touch many more lives.  However, even if we only help one family get through the holidays, that is what and where God has placed us and we are so very honored to do so. ♥

So, while I did get behind just a bit, my life, and how I live it now is the product of what I am learning and applying from this journey.  So I am strong, whole, perfect, loving, harmonious and happy 🙂  I persist until I succeed!  Nothing ever gets in the way of accomplishing my goals! ♥

And so the journey continues on, and I am ready for it.  I have given Grandma Peteymy respects and buried my mother-in-law, and now it is time to continue on…..fulfilling my definite major purpose in life just as she did♥

There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence or Luck♥

Priscilla L. Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart♥

Week 9 ~ Holidays without Family

Week 9, Thanksgiving week was a tough one.  Holidays without Family, loved ones who have left the earth too soon, and now a loved one who was with us for many years, but is now gone…..how do we get through Holidays without Family?

I have learned this lesson for almost 10 years now.  I lost my son Cliff and his cowboy hat croppedClifford Edwin Widmer, III to suicide in May of 2005.  It took me many years to get back to the different version of myself now.  I had to learn to be this new person I had become….a mom whose son was no longer here on this earth with me.  A mom who would never be a Grandma, never have grandchildren, and whose heart would ache during the Holidays without him.

On November 26th at 9:15pm my beautiful Mother-in-Law left us…..while it was way past time for her to pass on, it still brought out Grandma Peteythe raw pain of loss……loss during the Holidays is felt ten fold for sure.  It made me so incredibly sad, and grateful all at the same time.  This is a very tough combination of feelings to deal with all at once.  You see, Petey, as we called her, had suffered Alzheimer’s for many years.  We have been sad for many years, but until death, really could not start the mourning process.  So, while it was incredibly sad, it was answer to prayer at the same time.  Finally she is at peace, not trapped in a body where she didn’t even know her family.  While we prepare to leave to travel to her Funeral tomorrow, I had to take the time to get this post down on paper and prepare for the celebration of her finally being at peace.   She is now whole again, no more sickness, beautiful beyond measure, and we will see her again sometime soon ♥

This happening this particular week, and all that I am involved with to fulfill my time here on earth, was almost too much to bear.  However, I am strong, I have purpose, and I wake every day with excitement to share the God given gifts, my Definite Purpose in Life!  With this now being who I am, I somehow get through all of the emotions of the Holidays without Family and am able to pick myself up and continue on this beautiful Journey.

So, we will be traveling early tomorrow morning to show the respect and love for Petey, and life on earth will go on.  We must continue on even though it isn’t always easy to do.  I am so grateful I am able to continue on this journey.  Embracing the sadness, allowing myself to “feel it”, and then continuing on.

As we move from one Holiday on to the next, one of the hardestchristmas Holidays for me, other than “Mother’s Day”, I know that I will be okay.  I am in control, I am pursuing my Definite Major Purpose in life which keeps my sons memory alive!  His Cliffords HouseLegacy will live on way past my time here on earth, so I keep on my journey…..thankful that his death will have a purpose, a meaning, and live on Forever!

Peace be the Journey my friends♥

There is no such thing as Luck, Chance, or Coincidence♥

Priscilla L. Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart♥

WEEK 8 ~ Journey towards Harmony

As I am wrapping up Week 8 of my MKMMA journey, I am blessed on this journey and towards the Harmony Mark J has insisted must HARMONY 2be present! While I did understand the concept with just his words and passion, it wasn’t until I got busy reading many of my fellow MKMMAers “Press Releases”, that I felt the full impact of this “HARMONY”.   Wow! to be so blessed to be in harmony with all of these incredible people. My life will never be the same. I look forward to getting my Blogroll up on my blog so that everyone can attempt to see the harmony that I feel!

twitter1I was also able to wrap my brain better around “Twitter”, and utilize the tool Mark J shared with us. The amazing messages and outpouring from all of the new connections has been simply amazing. I think my past experiences were just too scattered with Twitter. What a blessing it is to experience it in harmony with others♥

As I prepare for my Week 9, I am still fighting my Old Blueprint! Cangolden blueprint you believe how strong it is? This actually brings excitement to me because all I see is that my “New Blueprint” will be even stronger! So very exciting living my future, being able to design my own life, exactly how it has been placed on my heart….so very divine indeed.

I have nothing but Love in my heart, and I succeed! ♥

“There is no such thing as Luck, Chance, or Coincidence” ~ Priscilla♥

Priscilla L. Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart♥


WEEK 7 ~ Living my New Reality

What an incredible week Week 7 has been on this Master Key Journey!  I hadn’t completed my movie poster from the previous Cillas MKMMA DMP Movie Posterweek, so I made a point of getting that done!

The conversations this week were such an amazing experience.  I am having fun letting people know that I have placed them in my future.  Not sure if they think I am crazy, but I don’t think they do.  I have yet to speak with my dear friend Linda in person about the morning conversations I have been having with her in my daily sit.  She knows about it because I messaged her about it; I cannot wait to share with her.  All of the tasks we are doing are in an effort to remove our “Old Blueprint” and replace it with our “New Blueprint”.  The one we design for ourselves.  The one that is our “Hearts Desires” ♥

Another one of the tasks this week was to record some of our daily affirmations, our DMP’s and scrolls.  This was very fun for me!  I loved it so much, I listen to it at night when I go to sleep, and listen when I wake in the morning.  What is so cool about this task, is that I was having a tough time fitting everything in, and this really made a RainbowBIG difference!  My background music is “Somewhere Over the Rainbow”.  A very calming, feel good song for me.  Puts a smile on my face and relaxes me just listening to the music itself.  Another really cool thing that happened with this, my tv in my bedroom is now off!  When I first met my husband over 23 years ago, he was a “tv on all night”  kind of guy, and still is!  Due to health reasons, he and I have not slept in the same bed for many years, and yet that tv was still on every night.  It was something I had gotten used to and couldn’t go to sleep without it on.  Not anymore!  I just play the song with my headphones on and go to sleep actually before it ends……such a peaceful end to my day.  This has to be the highlight of my week.

On many other levels, primarily work, it was a very tough week.  As you know, I have had a big financial lesson in my life recently, and the lessons just keep on coming.  I really should be a basket case blueprintright now, but I am not.  I do have my moments, but it is not paralyzing me as it would have in my past.  I’m taking that as a sign that my old blue print is further and further in the background, and my new blue print is on the verge of taking over!  PRAISE GOD ♥

On another cool note, I have been on TV and had other opportunities to share my Definite Major Purpose in life this week!  It feels good to get it out there into the Universe, and I soooo look forward to what is to come!

Until next week!  Peace be the be the journey, as Mark would say…..I now get it Mark J

There is no such thing as Luck, Chance or Coincidence! ♥

Priscilla L. Brooks, Entrepreneur at heart♥



As I get through Week 6 of the MKMMA, I must say this has been an incredible week for me.  As every new week brings on something new, or rather I should say, pulls out of ME something new.  New to your conscious mind of coarse.heart for love

This week, we started a new scroll, well we technically started it at the end of the previous week, but nevertheless this new scroll reminds us to “Start our day with LOVE in our heart”!  Isn’t this awesome!  And, as I do my daily sit, as usual I end up in prayer.  I ask my heavenly father to fill my veins with his blood, to fill me with LOVE.  And then it comes to me…..if I am filled with his blood, all I will have is LOVE.  Think about it, Jesus has only LOVE in his heart.  He does not have hate, jealousy, envy, any of that!

Love and PoohSo this week, as I got on with my week, I noticed something very different.  When I am on the road, getting angry at someone tailgating or speeding past me dangerously, A big smile comes over my face!  As the scrolls tell us, greet every stranger in silence by telling them you love them, it will bring a smile to your lips!  Then, I had another incident where someone hurt me, someone very close to me, and I was able to run the entire scenario of what I would do about it, noticing the outcome of what I was thinking about would shatter my world, and instead, I chose to just LOVE this person!  With my full armor, LOVE, I was able to find my way through this hurt and come out filled with even more LOVE! ♥

Another very interesting thing, which we all know this, but in a heart with cloudsdifferent context, I kept seeing photos of LOVE!  How cool is that!  Having my focus on LOVE!  Quite a good thing I must say.

I look forward to WEEK 7, and really must get going as I am a bit behind on a few tasks from last week.  I am so very thankful to have this MKMMA in my life, and I am getting stronger, more equipped, as time goes on.  My new blueprint is fighting to take control, and I see “My hearts Desires” in beautiful living color.  Like the beautiful tree you see as my “featured photo” above……this is the tree I sit under in my mind every morning as I begin my 15 min sit in this place that I already see in my future!  Amazing stuff!

Tomorrow is not promisedContinue to pursue your Hearts Desires my friends, only good will come of it!  You are perfect as you are, as you were born, not how circumstances have programmed you to be.  You can be what you will to be!!!  Keep searching if you have not yet found your true Definite Major Purpose in life.  It will set you free to be the amazing human being you were meant to be!

There is no such thing as Chance, Luck or Coincidence! ♥

Priscilla L. Brooks, Entrepreneur at heart♥


Week 5 ~ Divine Intervention; my light within

All I can say is WOW WOW WOW!!!  And I thought Week 4 was a pivotal week.  It was just a stepping stone to this week.  Last week I had many struggles that were trying very hard to get me off track.  Very deep struggles, ones that were out of control, but in the end not out of my control.  I pressed on, even though it would have been easier to give up.

Today, during my sit, my time with my heavenly Father GOD ♥, so very much was revealed to me.  What I have been searching for all of my life…..the missing pieces.the light within me

You cannot give what you do not have; I didn’t quite get the entire meaning of this until today.

The more you give the more you get back; I didn’t quite get the entire meaning of this until today.

You see, I am a giver by nature.  I in the past, have had zero respect for money.  If you remember, last week I gained the respect of money as all money is given by my Heavenly Father GOD ♥  That was just the tip of the iceberg so to speak.  That opened the door to what was to come to me TODAY♥

the light within 2You see, I was giving what I did not have!  I was not taking care of ME.  I thought this was a selfish act to take care of me, but today I learned that in order to give I must take care of me.  It is not selfish but necessary.

Once I got this, so much emotion came crashing through me!  I was weeping uncontrollably, but it wasn’t a bad weeping but one full of rejoice!  Finally, the missing pieces!  Finally, I know exactly what I need to do to fulfill my hearts desires, and know in such a different way where they all come from.  It is the Lords desire that is placed in me, so therefore I must honor him and fulfill them all!

It’s funny, I remember Mark J saying, and others who have taken this Master Key Journey before me, that many things deep within them was revealed and it changed there life.  I really didn’t understand that completely, but how could I?  I didn’t know what was hidden deep within me that needed to be attended to.

What an amazing day this is!  And I rejoice in it!

There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence, or Luck♥

Priscilla L. Brooks, Entrepreneur at heart♥


WEEK 4 ~ Financial Responsibility

Last week I eliminated FEAR out of my life.  It felt amazing!  I remember Mark J telling us that we would have some things buried very deep within us be revealed at some point and how that would change us forever.

Well, it happened to me this week!  I have always known that I hated money.  Even though I knew I really shouldn’t Hate anything, that truly was my feeling.  I also knew that many people have said that the reason why I would never have money was because I did not respect money and until I dealt with this the outcome would always be the same.

However, this week during my 15 minute sit, the walls came crashing down, and oh my!  It became so very clear to me.  I am going through yet another financial crisis in my life, and although not all things were in my control in regards to this perfect storm that hit, many decisions I did make were directly from my absolute disrespect for money.  Sometimes we have to hurt A LOT before we finally get it!  I found that while having this absolute disrespect for money, it was actually a disrespect to my Father GOD.  Wow!  How could this be?  How could I disrespect the one who provided all that I receive?  It was this miss-understanding of money and the evil it can bring on.  I have now made “Financial Responsibility” a priority in my life.  I simply cannot get to where I want to be without this.  Somehow I have known this for a very long time, but knowing how to change this was the problem.

So, I now have a new affirmation that I will read for some time to come; take a look…..



Deuteronomy 8:18 ~ “Remember the Lord your God, for it is He who gives you the ability to produce wealth.”

As I read this affirmation every day, sometimes several times per day, I weep.  I am so humbled by the grace he has shown me, to find a way out of my backwards thinking, and to start anew. ♥

So this week has definitely been a week of Massive Change in my life FOREVER!  And I am so blessed because of it!

I firmly believe it was the change in our weekly sit that brought this out.  We were directed last week to relax our entire body during our 15 minute sit.  This week we were directed to silence our mind and our thoughts.  Wow is all I can say.  I found myself nodding off, and at a certain point I then start my internal prayers as this is how I do my daily sit.  And oh boy, the emotion came flooding over me as this disrespect of money was put into perspective for me.

Thank you Mark J, Davene and so many others for what you do on this journey of The Master Key System!  You are such a blessing to not only me, but the entire universe!

There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence or Luck!

Priscilla L. Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart♥