WEEK 15-2 Well Organized

We are beginning our “Franklin Makeover” this week, and my word/words for the week are “Well Organized”.

We were told to pick something we really wanted to achieve.  So, this was an easy choice for me.  I am constantly in search of getting “Well Organized”.

Hand tight….more to come♥

WEEK 14-2 “WILD”

Week 14, the second time around!  I remember last session I watched the movie Rudy for this weeks assignment.  So, I had watched all of the movies that were an option, but settled on the film “Wild”.

Its funny how I enjoyed this movie tremendously when I watched it in October, as an entertaining evening at home with my hubby.  But watching it this time brought me to a different level.  And I am glad that I had already watched it once before because it taught me a very valuable lesson.  I need to be the observer even more!

I ended up tardy with my posting of this weeks lesson because I couldn’t merely place a few words on the page.  I found myself so immersed with the entire experience this woman went through.  And though I absolutely loved the film, I had to know the person whose life experience this really was.  I had to fill in the little details that perhaps weren’t exciting enough for film.

So I continued my research on Cheryl Strayed, the woman who hiked the PCT (Pacific Crest Trail) to find herself again, the person already inside of her, the woman she had lost along the way of life, grief and pain.

This story from the movie/book “Wild” is the result of Cheryl losing her mother to cancer…..while promised another year to live, she lives only 7 weeks.  Cheryl is pissed off!  At the world, at the doctors, at her mom.  Even though she knows her mom would have chosen to live, she is still angry.

Cheryl was in a spiral for several years, approximately 4 years of bad choices, drugs, men and a broken marriage.  It was at this breaking point in her life, that she decided she was going to hike the PCT and get her life back!  She worked extra hours at her diner job as a waitress, and every week would purchase a few new items for her gigantic pack she would later name “Monster”.

Without any real preparation at all, Cheryl leaves her life behind, sells most everything she owns, loads up her truck with what little she has left, and drives to Oregon and leaves her truck and the pre packaged boxes that will be mailed to her along the trail.

She begins this journey in Mojave, CA  Now, you may not be familiar with Mojave, CA, but it is a desert.  Very hot in the summer, and DRY!  Cheryl found this out very quickly.  As she was not able to get to her next water source as quickly as she had thought she would.

This journey would take her approximately 1,000 miles and would take her 95 days to complete.

Self talk kicks in…..”Remember you can quit anytime!”

She travels only 5 miles the first day…as she is setting up camp, more self talk….this time to her mother “I thought of you today….I hope you won’t be mad at me if I quit.”

As she hears noises outside of her tent this first night, yet again self talk….”I am not afraid!”

Day 2 she discovers that she has brought the wrong type of fuel which is needed for the dehydrated food brought for her trip.  So again, self talk….”Cold mush, cold mush, I will like and eat cold mush”.

Fast forward to Day 10, she is averaging only about 7 miles per day.  On the trail she runs across a rattle snake…..again, self talk “I am not hungry, I do not miss food!”  That evening while sleeping in her tent, she feels movement in her sleeping bag and thinks it is a snake, as she bolts out of the tent screaming, out crawls a little caterpillar.   Hmmm….thinking about something, having fear of something, focusing on it gives it power.  In this case the power made her actually believe there was a snake in her sleeping bag.  Perhaps there were many things she simply was not prepared for.

Throughout this journey, Cheryl continues to reflect on the very painful moments of her life.  As the moment when she decided to make this journey, she is “Walking herself back to the woman her mother thought she was.”

Day 14 she hits her first stop “Kennedy Meadows” which marks 100 miles she has traveled.

 

Stay tuned…..I will continue on with this post and bring it full circle….such an amazing story!

WEEK 13-2 Gratefulness ~ Really?

As I get through Week 13, I must say this week is a bittersweet one for sure♥  And yet, it is also so Perfect!

This is the week of Christmas, and we are to focus on at least 3 things per day we are grateful for.  be grateful

Christmas Day and Mother’s Day are the toughest days by far for me.  After losing my only son to suicide, and after 10 years, these are still a challenge.

I have come so far on my grief journey, and I think each and every year that it will be better.  In fact, this year has been an incredible year for me.  But yet still, I am emotional to say the least during these times.

So this week could not be more perfect in timing.  Keeping my focus on being Grateful for at least 3 things per day has a profound effect.  We all take so many be grateful 2things for granted.  Just like all of the little successes throughout the day, we also have many little things to be grateful for.  If you aren’t sure this is true, try imagining life without something you enjoy.  Like the nice car in the driveway, the husband who makes your coffee every morning, or how about the fact that you have a job.

While it was yet another tough Christmas Day for me, I focused on watching movies and spending the day with my hubby, diverting my attention, and we get through another Christmas ♥

I am so incredibly Grateful for this MKMMA experience, and how my life is so very different than it could be.  And even though neither am I perfect in my daily actions or in my persistence, I am far better than I was last year and most definitely prior to that.  And so I am persistent, I know my passion, I embrace it and I continue to work on ways to bury new habits deep into my subby, knowing who I am and what can derail my great focus and intentions.

Be blessed my friends with all of the “little things” to be grateful for and see what happens!you are perfect stone

Great each and every day with love in your heart ♥

Priscilla L. Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart♥

“There is no such thing as Luck, Coincidence or Chance!

Let’s Connect!  CillasMKMMA@gmail.com

WEEK 10-2 The Mental Diet Observer

Each week we exercise the Law of Practice, Learning to be The Observer, and keeping the channels open with The Mental Diet.   be the observer

We have learned many different ways to penetrate our subby, many different combinations leaving no path untraveled.

Well this week I actually witnessed the power of all candle lightthis practice.  I was preparing for a candle lighting ceremony; this was to be our 5th year hosting this event.  The ceremony is one where we light candles in memory of our children who are no longer with us.  One of the moms who attended last year was so touched, she wanted to help plan this years event.  Unfortunately, after a few attempts at connecting  with her unsuccessfully I was on my own again.  That was until less than two weeks prior to the event.  She wanted to change the location to accomodate more participants.  While I certainly understood why, less than two weeks prior to the event just wasn’t an option.  But she wouldn’t let up.  She actually questioned my motives, after all wasn’t the goal to reach as many people as possible?  Well at this point I invited her to have her own ceremony and I would cancel mine.  She didn’t want to do that.  So, I decided to do an online presentation only.  Once again she responded with “Unbelievable”.

Here is what was so amazing about this entire situation.  First, I made my decision rather quickly, even though I did wait to discuss it with my husband that love from the bibleevening.  I felt like a weight was lifted.  And, in the spirit of keeping the channels open, I never responded to the last comment made by the mom from last year, instead, I observed that she was merely misplacing the pain of losing her son.  It wasn’t about me being right, it was about not causing her any further pain, while maintaining my own peace of mind as well.

I then made the decision to close the small office we had for the non profit in memory of my son Cliff.   I had been contemplating this for a few months, but give and manifest lovebecause I am in tune with the world within, it had become quite clear to me that this was the right decision.  Then all of a sudden, donations started coming in….another confirmation 🙂

Even more is revealed by all of this.  I will seek new outreach for my non profit and this makes me very excited!  I just want to make a difference in memory of my son, keeping in harmony will keep the channels wide open.

Find your internal gifts, your burning desire, and experience how amazing it feels to fulfill your true destiny.

There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence or Luck!

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart

Let’s connect ~ CillasMKMMA@gmail.com

WEEK 9-2 “Law of Growth”

“Law of Growth”; “Whatever we think about grows.   What we forget about atrophies”

Wow!  We have been reading about the “Seven Laws of the Mind” for several weeks now.  But this week, it is starting to manifest in my life.  So very exciting indeed!

Let me explain.  So just for a minute, let’s think about this for a minute, really think about it!  First of all, if what we forget atrophies, by golly I do not want to forget about all of the successes in my life, the positive things that happen daily!

law of growth beautiful fieldNow lets spin that around, if what we think about grows, then perhaps we need a shift in our life?  Do not surround yourself in the negative.  It is unfortunately the norm for many.  We need to make our thinking positive 90% of the day, because after all, what we think about GROWS!!!  Right!  Do you want more of the positive or the negative in your life?  Exactly! ♥

Let me give you an example of what happened to me yesterday.  I have been sick, doesn’t happen often but there you go.  I was talking to a girlfriend and she was having a bad day, left work because she was in such a bad mood because everything that day had been “Bad”.  I reminded her that we must let go of the negative and think of all the personal successes we have daily.  While she was dwelling on the negative/bad things that were happening in her day, until she released them they would continue to grow!! Wow!! where did that come from?  It is the Practice, the daily readings, the seeds being planted in my subconscious.♥  And then this morning, in my morning sit, “The Law of Growth” yes, I get it now….simple but getting it into your subconscious working 24/7 not so simple unless you are doing the hard work of planting it into your subconscious mind and believing it with every fiber of your being!

Such an amazing journey, even better the 2nd time around!

I am so grateful for my MKMMA experience! ♥

“There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence or Luck ♥

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart ♥

Let’s Connect ~ CillasMKMMA@gmail.com

WEEK 8-2 THOUGHTS

Thoughts…. Is there really power in our Thoughts?

In truth, the only power is Within!  And of course our thoughts are within!

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Power within MKMMA2015

As I get through week 8, and I begin to take everything back, each thought that brought about the results, you can go back to where it all began. It is then that you see just how thought is the true power within.

Much continues to be revealed to me. This is my 2nd session of MKMMA, and it is so awesome to see more and more as I learn to trust the power within.

In fact, my passion is to spread the word of suicide prevention. In order to do that I need to research mental health, brain health as well as overall health. What has further been revealed to me?  Well think back to the days when society would lock you up in a mental facility if you spoke about being able to communicate over many miles away.  Before the invention of radio or the telephone.

Well what if our modern day diagnosis of bipolar disorder is really just an incredibly intelligent person whose brain is so high functioning that it presents as an illness when in fact it is just an intelligence we don’t yet understand?

Pretty incredible thoughts can manifest incredible things from someone very ordinary just like myself.Power within

I am so very blessed to be on this journey and thankful to be able to put my thoughts in writing to recall the entire experience.

Find you true passion in life, then take time daily to sit completely still, allowing the power within to manifest the powerful thoughts that overcome mediocrity and produce miracles

There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence or Luck ????

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart ????

Let’s connect!  CillasMKMMA@gmail.com

WEEK 7-2 Progressions

As we continue to add more progressions in our training with MKMMA, it is quite amazing to me the opportunities, the inexplicable things that are happening in my life.

Honestly, it is such a blessing to tap into my “World Within”, the “Divine”, and embrace my destiny.

I am being called to do things that I never saw in my future.  In fact, they touch me so deeply, and were never even on my radar.

givingAs I repeat daily “I am in the dynamic flow of giving and receiving” I add to that ~ through Christ who strengthens me♥

So many opportunities to reach others, truly save them!  People who are hurting, who perhaps have nobody in their life who are helping them.  People who want to be anonymous, who reached out to me.  How beautiful is that?  How beautiful is it that God chose me to help?  This feeling of being able to help another person find God’s love is beyond words.

Find your internal bliss, your destiny, your major purpose in life….you will follow your blissforever be fulfilled if you can stop the noise long enough to see and hear it!

I begin this day with “Love” in my heart…..and I succeed♥

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart ♥

There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence or Luck!

Let’s Connect!  CillasMKMMA@gmail.com

WEEK 6-2 ~ LOVE ♥ I greet this day with LOVE in my heart! ♥

Such a beautiful week with LOVE to begin each and every day♥

I had to make a quick trip out of town to say my goodbyes and pay my respects to my cousin Kelly.  She will be taken off of Life Support tomorrow.  I am so glad I went to see her, and was there to try and comfort her family.

Kelly is my cousin, and she was a good buddy to my son Cliff who I lost to suicide in May of 2005.  She has such a special and deep place in my heart because of the compassion and love she gave to my son.

JakeI met her son Jakob for the first time….I couldn’t stop looking at him.  I was afraid he might think I was weird or something.  He is just so adorable, and there is something so very pure about him.  It was love at first sight!  One that only a mother could understand.

I tell you all that you must “Greet every day with LOVE in your heart!” ♥  Without this love, you simply cannot reach you true potential.

Jakob and KellyAnd, please do not take any day for granted.  Quit living in the past or even in the future.  Live today!  Embrace today!  Greet the day with LOVE in your heart♥  It will put you where you need to be to, put everything into perspective.

My cousin Kelly will be gone from this earth soon, and as I stalk her Facebook kellypage and look back to what she was doing, and what she was posting right before her heart stopped beating…..I am reminded that we cannot waste a moment with anything but LOVE in our hearts♥

I dedicate this week to my cousin Kelly Neal ♥

Girl I love you so much, you were a good buddy to my Cliff!  We all loved you unconditionally….I just hope that you knew that♥

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart ♥

Let’s connect ~ CillasMKMMA@gmail.com

WEEK 5-2 Opinions~Breakthroughs

This week, we were to give no “Opinions”.  In regards to “Opinions”, my week started off a bit slow.  I was thinking about it, and waiting for these “Opinions” to show up.  And of course they did, a few times indeed.  And it was tough….I really struggled with not giving them.  But the awareness I believe was the best part of the battle♥

What a strong start I had….everything was in line, I was doing all of my readings, etc.  And then…..I did another amazing thing….something that had soothed me since the loss of my son…..something I did every morning to wake up my brain and get my day started.  You see, Mark J had told us in many previous sessions noise and chatterthat we must get rid of the chatter…the noise if you will.  And I had made many changes this session that I simply refused to do last session.  I had been conditioned to have the TV on in the bedroom all night long.  In fact, our TV is never turned off.  This is a habit that my husband had, and it took quite a lot for me to get used to this habit of his.  But since it had become a habit, getting rid of it was tough, very tough.  While the TV is still on all night, there is not sound.  I turned it all the way down so I cannot hear it.  May sound simple, but this was huge.  But what I do every morning, without fail, is get on my tablet, check in on things on FB and then go to mind numbing games on FB.  I started this habit when I was in the deepest time of my grief.  I lost my son to suicide in May of 2005 (CliffsStory), and in 2007 my husband got a job in NV and we decided to move.  I was actually going to be traveling back and forth from CA to NV and keep my job as a Loan Officer in the Mortgage business, but that was just in time for the Mortgage Meltdown…..we lost our home to foreclosure, and I had to move to NV full time.  I was all alone most of the day, which was a bit strange for me.  I hadn’t really been on FB but this was how I made some friends, and got through a very tough time in my life.  In fact, I still have those same few friends that got me through the lonely times.  This mind numbing playing of games on FB helped me busy my mind with something that created a diversion from the pain.  Well, guess what?  I deleted every game off of my tablet this week.  Yep, I got tired of the time I was wasting.  Not just in the morning, but on the weekends, time that I could help myself reach my burning desires….I was on my tablet, diverting.
Breakdowns can create breakthroughs croppedThis was a huge breakthrough for me.  I felt so accomplished.  And then……

I had trouble sleeping 3 nights in a row, and the last of these 3 nights was the worst.  I had such an incredibly painful headache.  In fact, I hadn’t had anything like this happen to me since I lost my son.  Hmmmm…or better yet Wow!!!  Is it possible that I was feeling something that had been suppressed from back in 2005?  This coping mechanism, diversion, can keep you from truly getting through the process.  But wow, I was just amazed at the strength of all of this.

So, after a very tough week, I am still claiming victory!  Although I got side tracked on my readings and sits, I am still not playing those games.  And I am engaging in my home life.  Which is where I have had such an imbalance over the years.

I am pressing forward, and cannot wait for Week 6-2.

Stay tuned for the crazy and beautiful things that will happen to me this week.

There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence or Luck♥

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart♥

Lets Connect ~ CillasMKMMA@gmail.com

WEEK 4-2 “I” Who and what is “I”?

As we ponder and search for the answer to this “I” question, Who and what is “I”?, so much more is being revealed in God’s master plan for me.gods master plan

So many more details are crystallizing.  I had some very rough days last week after my “Breakthrough”.  At first I thought I was being attacked by the “Enemy”, and then, after our weekly webcast and the amazing video we watched, it became quite clear to me.  It was my “old blueprint” that I was fighting with.  As crazy as it may sound, that was a relief indeed!  Why?  Because I already know I am in control of all of this!  I created, or better said, I allowed the old blueprint to form so I can absolutely change that blueprint.  Is it easy?  Heck no!  But is it worth the effort, the struggle, the triumph? YES YES YES it is ♥

give and manifest loveThis is my second time around in this journey and WOW seems to be the only word that continues to come to mind.  It is all so very intense!  And I LOVE it!  Yes, I truly LOVE it.  If you were on this journey with me you would know that we must have LOVE in our heart and without this LOVE, the LOVE of all humankind, we will not be in harmony.  Folks we are all connected, everything, every cell on this planet, it is all alive!  Embrace it, LOVE it! ♥

“There is no such thing as Chance, Coincidence or Luck♥

Priscilla L Brooks, Entrepreneur at Heart♥

Let’s connect ~ CillasMKMMA@gmail.com